the Hope of Survivors

Survivors

You are here at this site because you are suffering from guilt, shame, remorse, and a myriad of feelings. You want to be set free. We sympathize with your pain. We’ve been there. We can help.

Although you may feel isolated and terribly depressed, maybe even abandoned by God and everyone else, please remember that you are NOT alone. You are NOT the first one to be abused by your pastor/clergy/counselor. You can take the necessary steps to recover and restore your relationship with God and your spouse or significant other. You can be WHOLE and WELL again. There is HOPE for a new beginning and a new life in Christ.

Below are some links to other survivor’s stories, poetry and other articles on clergy abuse. Read them and weep, but also rejoice, for these one-time victims are now living full, happy lives, and the best part is—YOU CAN TOO!

Stories:

Hope Renewed—Samantha Nelson

A Letter To My Sexual Abuser—Victim-Turned-Survivor

Jackie's Journey—A Pastor's Wife's testimony

From Spiritual Devastation to Victory—A video testimony by Kim

A Time to Speak!—Rita

A Time to Speak!—Part 2—Rita

Trusting God When It Doesn't Make Sense—Joy

A Whole Lifetime to Nothing Short of Eternity—Madeline

My Story of Clergy Sexual Abuse—Mary Jo Huels-Noworyta

Why Did I Stay?—Tammy Landry

A Shared Testimony—Mrs. K

Not A Relationship—Sheila

Hope for the Hopeless—Andora (a pseudonym)

We Are Not Alone—Catherine Thiemann

Imagine the Unimaginable—Kim

Musical Misconduct—Sheila

Nowhere to Run—T.A. de Bie

I Will Never Regret Telling the Truth—*Serenity, 14 years old

Predator Pastor—Chris Keaton

Survivors Songs (a link to Clergy Abuse Songs on YouTube)

Simply Empathy—Tiffany Smith*

Relentless—Sabrina Satterfield

From Darkness & Despair to Hope & Healing—Madeline Roll

Looks Can Be Deceiving—Samantha Nelson

Deceitful Love—Cecelia

The Beast—Betsy

License to Prey—Ruth Collins

Environment of Healing—Rebecca Peters

A Story of Faithfulness—Jill Morikone

“I Know the Plans...”—Samantha Nelson

Mimi’s Story—Miriam Morones

Missing Puzzle Piece—Kim Logan

The Unselfish Love of a Husband—Samantha Nelson

Present Help—Jenny Hull

Long-Awaited Hope—Sandy Kirkham

Misguided Love—Sarah*
(*A pseudonym)

Rebuilding and Rekindling—Heather Huffman

A Place for Me—Hope Bencho

False Friend—S.S.

God Heals Marriages—Anonymous

Silence When the Door Is Shut—Allison Moran

A Letter to Youth—Chris*
(*A pseudonym)

Love Beyond Measure—A.H.

When Religion Fails, God Remains—Deborah Arocho

The Wolf—S.S.

No Longer a Voice Crying in the Wilderness—Phenessa

Behind the Mask—Laura E. Holman

Still Hurting...—Marty*
(*A pseudonym)

All Shall Be Well: One Woman Survivor’s Story of Clergy Sexual Abuse—Mary Isabel Steele

No More Silence...—Marie W.

Shattered Pieces—A.T.

Bleeding Souls—Makeba

The Prodigal Daughter—Di

A New Creation—Amy

Homeless in the UK—Jayne (a daily blog by a clergy sexual abuse survivor)

Unsilenced La Sierra—Collection of Survivors stories

Husband’s Stories:

That Fateful Day—Steve Nelson

What Used To Be?—Steve Nelson

Betrayal of Innocence—Curt Szajnecki

Poetry:

You Knew...—Samantha Nelson

Prison of Lies—C.D.

HeLp Me UnDeRsTaNd—Nandipa

Who Would Like to Now Confess?—Debra C. Rufini

Angel of Light—Rena

Effects—Rena

The Hidden Part of Me—K.D.

Today—K.D.

Before You—Stephanie Haslick

Hollow Reflection—Sherry Stockford

Little Girl Again—Sherry Stockford

How Did This Happen?—Written by A Member of the Congregation

To Trust Anew—Written by A Friend of a Victim

Why Couldn’t You Just Leave Me Alone?—Phenessa

Anomaly Homily—Rachel Clarion*
(*A pseudonym)

Hit and Run—Rachel Clarion*

Whos Next?—Rachel Clarion*

His Power—Rachel Clarion*

In Between Nowhere—K.D.

In Quiet Desperation—K.D.

Lost But Found—K.D.

Church Abuse Poetry Therapy

Little Girl’s Soul in a Woman’s Body—Kim

Two Faces Collide—Kim

Mary, Mary, Everywhere—Jennifer Jill Schwirzer

Lift Up Your Eyes, Magdalene—Jennifer Jill Schwirzer

Silent Tears & One DayJ. Marie Waldrep

The Pastor’s Letter—Cynthia Baello

My Hurt Soul—Samantha Beach

How Long?—Ray McAllister

Excerpts:

Sound Counsel—Written by Ellen G. White

If you are a survivor of pastoral abuse, we would love to hear your story and possibly make it available on this web site for others to read and renew their hope. You can use a pseudonym if you choose and rest assured that all personal information will be kept private and strictly confidential. Please contact us.

Please note: We do not necessarily agree with or endorse all the information contained in the survivor’s stories. We do, however, feel they have some valuable information that could be useful to you in your recovery. It helps to know you’re not alone, that others have shared your pain and have healed, by the grace of God, in their own time and way.

The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart...Psalms 34:18